Fixxil

Fixxil

 

See inside the mind of various submissives. My tenth interview is with Fixxil!

 
DommeSource:
How did you discover the world of female domination / submission and what attracted you to it?
 
Fixxil:
I have been a fun loving masochist for most of my life but it still took me a while to find my way into femdom. My gateway came through an early love of upskirt and lingerie sites. These sites were amazing because they featured exclusively female models who actually seemed to enjoy what they were doing. I soon found that a lot of these sites also featured extensive teasing and some soft denial in their scenes which I found to be oddly exciting. This tease and denial soon became my favorite part of the sets and before long I found myself craving something much stronger than what the vanilla sites had to offer. Looking to satisfy these new cravings, I jumped head first into the abyss and never looked back.
 

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DommeSource:
How long have you been a submissive? Are you a submissive in “real life” as well or do you switch?
 
Fixxil:
I have been a holistic submissive for the past 2 years. Allowing myself to fully embrace my submissive side was a bit of a struggle as I never liked the stigmas associated with it so it took me a while to finally admit to myself that I was not a switch. A couple years ago that changed when I began dating a girl who tried to make me fully embrace my dominant side. This resulted in an excruciatingly awkward series of events which made it painfully clear to myself that I am terrible at being dominant when it comes to personal relationships, although I did thoroughly enjoy the resulting humiliation from the fallout. It’s amazing what failed relationships can teach you about yourself!! 🙂
 
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DommeSource:
Are you a slave to any domme? If so, explain why you serve Her.
 
Fixxil:
I have never been a slave to a domme before but I am currently undergoing a trial period in hopes of being allowed to serve the divine Princess Mika. I desire to serve her because she is effortless in her beauty, delightfully viscous in her sessions and she actually enjoys her roll as a domme. She perfectly matches a strong, god-like demeanor with a real humanness that naturally inspires me towards devotion rather than asking for it.
 
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DommeSource:
What are your most memorable moments, as a submissive?
 
Fixxil:
My favorite moments are those that play on my desire to be completely controlled and used by a worthy goddess. Most recently it has been little things like purchasing clips only to find out that they are rip offs. I love that feeling so much because I know the humiliation is bringing amusement, and money, to my goddess.
 
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DommeSource:
What is one thing you wish you knew about femdom/submission before you started?
 
Fixxil:
I wish I would have had a better understanding of how many different fetishes exist under the femdom banner and that some of them are pretty extreme. In hindsight this should have been obvious, and I do love a lot of the extreme stuff now, but when I was first starting out it was completely overwhelming and slightly damaging to be exposed to some of that stuff right out of the gate. But hey, it’s how you learn!
 
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DommeSource:
Are there aspects of the femdom industry you wish you could change? If so, what are they?
 
Fixxil:
I understand that the industry is a business, and that the focus will always be placed upon making the producers of the sites money. But I wish that more membership sites would utilize the tip/tribute system so that subs can directly support the dommes that inspire them. The main reason why I ended up getting into findom and goddess worship is because it is not only more personal, but I know that most of my money is going directly to my goddess, as it should.
 
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DommeSource:
What are your favorite fetishes and why?
 
Fixxil:
Ummmm I love way too many fetishes to list but my favorites would have to be upskirt/panty/nylon teasing, JOI/cum countdowns, goddess worship, ass worship, chastity teasing and anything relating to humiliation or denial. Haha Pretty much anything that takes control away from me. I absolutely love the feeling of powerlessness rushing through my body. =)
 
The fun thing about fetishes is just how quickly you can develop new ones. Just within the last couple of months I have developed an insanely intense addiction to findom and foot worship (my goddess’ perfect size 10s are to thank for that second one) and all it takes now is just one “good boy” to melt me where I stand. (^_^#)
 
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DommeSource:
What are your least favorite fetishes and why?
 
Fixxil:
Well one fetish that just doesn’t work for me is height humiliation. I’m a very tall guy so I can’t help but giggle any time a domme tries to make me feel short. Although every now and then it is still fun to try and pretend. 🙂
 
As far as my least favorites, I can’t handle anything relating to adult baby or race play. The former is just uncomfortable (in a bad way) for me, and the latter is just cruel and unnecessary. Although to be clear, I have no issues with anyone who enjoys AB play, its just not for me. I will however judge you a little if you are into race play. That one’s just a hard no for me.
 
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DommeSource:
In “real life”, do you consider yourself successful? In other words, were you born a sub or are you a sub by choice?
 
Fixxil:
I have somehow managed to remain successful in life even though I’ve always lacked direction and have an uncanny gift for self sabotage. I can’t say whether I was born a sub or not, but I was definitely raised to be dominant and my professional life has always reflected that aspect of my nature. Personally though, it all comes down to what brings me the most satisfaction. I ultimately chose to embrace my submissive side because I found that serving others gave me a much greater sense of fulfillment and purpose than serving myself. So I definitely am a sub by choice.
 
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DommeSource:
Describe your ideal relationship with a femdomme.
 
Fixxil:
My ideal relationship would be one which allows me to fully submit myself to her desires without having to think about my own. I want to serve a domme in a way that enriches her life without the focus being placed on my needs. The tricky part is that I don’t want to be straight up exploited, I’m too proud for that ;), but rather I want a natural give and take that emphasizes her desire to lead and my desire to follow.
 
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DommeSource:
What is your favorite aspect of being a sub?
 
Fixxil:
The best part about being a sub for me is how freeing it is to just completely let go and embrace the loss of control that comes from serving a domme. When you find your perfect sub space you kind of lose track of reality and just kind of exist for her pleasure. It’s very existential for me. haha!
 
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DommeSource:
What do you look for when looking for a domme? Are there any special characteristics that you look for?
 
Fixxil:
I look for a strong and nurturing dominance and a fun loving spirit. It is extremely important to me to serve a domme who loves what she is doing and who is able takes control in a way that is effortless and inspires worship. I also look for someone who is interested in testing and pushing my limits as it is important to me to keep trying new things. Finally, I look for a domme who has a wicked smile. The kind of smile that inspires lust and dread at what she might be thinking up next. ∩_∩
 
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DommeSource:
Is there anything that a domme does or could do that would turn you completely away? Or, if you have served a domme before and left, why did you leave?
 
Fixxil:
My main turn off would be cruelty for the sake of cruelty. I love sadistic dommes when their sadism comes from a place of enjoyment and pleasure, but some dommes embrace sadism as a means of expressing their hate and disdain for their subs. If a domme ever turned on me like that I would nope out of there right away.
 
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DommeSource:
Do you partake in online sessions, clips, or in person sessions? Which are your favorite and least favorite and why?
 
Fixxil:
Of the three I have only done clips, which are amazing, but I am going to jump into online sessions soon.
 
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DommeSource:
Is there anything you would like to say to the DommeSource audience, to both fellow dommes and subs?
 
Fixxil:
I just want to say that I truly hope this site succeeds in its goal of educating and guiding both dommes and subs. It has been a wonderful resource for me and it is truly amazing to know that there are communities like this one that don’t frown upon femdom as being a weird fetish thing but rather embrace it and try to make it into something better than it was before.

 

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